I’m writing this in my kitchen at 5am chomping on some Belvita breakfast biscuits having been awake since about 3am. I haven’t slept properly for weeks and I keep having to shuffle around to stop my legs/hips/knees from getting pins and needles.
It’s pretty safe to say that I’m well and truly ready for all of this to be over now! The last 2-3 weeks are always the worst, especially now that my bump has dropped, meaning I need a wee every 5 minutes and being comfortable is a distant memory. I’m actually starting to think I’ll probably get more sleep when the baby arrives!
Saying that, I still consider myself to be pretty fortunate in the pregnancy-symptoms department. My back and hip pain have been relatively minor this time around, I’ve had no swelling of legs or ankles, no heartburn – in fact, other than not really being able to sleep, I think I’m doing pretty well (and not sleeping has it’s perks – such as being able to get ahead with all my work and write blog posts in pure, silent, uninterrupted bliss!)
We’re pretty much ready for baby to turn up any day now. We’ve just bought a new steriliser from Mothercare to replace the old one as it had funny bits of metal floating around in it and luckily it was in the sale for half price. I should probably take another look at my baby bag as I have really only panic-packed it once a few weeks ago after it dawned on me that it was all getting a bit close!
Mentally, I’m still not sure how ready I am, which I know sounds totally nuts because I’ve been pregnant FOREVER now so have had plenty of time to get used to the idea but I think there’s still going to be a wave of shock when she arrives and I’ve got a whole new person to look after. But maybe there won’t. Sometimes I just manage not to stress out about stuff like this and just go with the flow. I think the fact that I know I’m having a c-section is helping a lot. Obviously it’s still worrying and there are still things that could go wrong but I think I’d be a nervous wreck right now if I had to contemplate a natural birth. (Don’t think that I’m by any means suggesting that a c-section is the easy option, because trust me, it’s not, we’re still talking MAJOR surgery that takes weeks to recover from, but for my own personal reasons relating to what happened with Huxley at birth and being in intensive care, it’s definitely the best option for me)
Also, I hope you guys aren’t expecting a dainty little baby girl because at my last scan the lady looked at me in shock and asked if my diabetes test had come back clear and I was told that she looked like she had a ‘chunky tummy’! She was already estimated to be 6lb 14oz at 36 weeks (babies put on 0.5lb a week in the last few weeks) so I’m fully expecting another hefty baby like Huxley!
Wish me luck!